I believe that the habit of embracing ambiguity has tremendously helped and applied in other classes of mine, specifically Introduction to Women’s & Gender Studies and my first finance course (MGMT 203). In my gender studies course, our major assignments had very vague prompts and we had a lot of free reign. While many in my class were overwhelmed by the options, it felt freeing to know that there were many different avenues that my papers could go down. Similarly in my finance course, my group had very vague outlines of what each of our presentations were going to look like. By collaborating together, we were able to determine what aspects of the company would fit the best into a story for each presentation. Without this course, doing so would have been much more difficult. This habit came naturally to me since, ever since I was young, I always was one to be pushing the boundaries when it came to assignments. I find that I work better with some freedoms rather than rigid guidelines since my ideas can develop further.
I have learned a lot about myself when it comes to child’s eye and hyper observation. I noticed that I don’t take in the little things in my every day life. Instead I speed through routines and don’t let what happens to me sink it. I have found it very therapeutic to make myself slow down and notice the little things going on around me. While hyper observation doesn’t come as easy to me, it is something that I want to work on this most. This habit is the most rewarding because it not only inspires me for projects, but it re-centers me when I feel overwhelmed in my daily life. Especially in the current climate, it is easy for me to feel overwhelmed by the news and the possibility of me or a loved one getting sick. Looking at everything during my walks with my dog at home are a way for me to feel more at peace at this time in my life.
The habit I want to work on the most is failing forward. For that assignment, I felt like my failures weren’t strong enough for me to feel like I fail forward. I still think about grades in courses, and I fear not doing well on assignments, reflecting on my GPA. I believe that the way I was raised was to avoid failure at all costs, so it is going to take more practice getting comfortable with failure for me to accept it as a tool to move forward.
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