This week was pretty stressful as I had two midterms and was not feeling well from being sick last week. I felt like I had to find a way to destress, which I would normally resort to painting for that, but it was raining at the time and I didn’t feel like walking to makerspace. I decided to try meditation for the first time.
I used a video on youtube for a guided meditation, but I could not concentrate for the entirety of the video and lost motivation. The video had a voice over of a woman talking through scenarios to follow in your head, but I had a different vision for what meditation is and could not bring myself to follow her instructions. When I tried a soundtrack for medication on itunes I had more luck. I simply sat on the floor, turned the music on, and let my mind wander.
The “song” was about 10 minutes long and I could only bring myself to concentrate for about 6 minutes before I had so many thoughts in my mind I could not listen to the music anymore. While I did feel slightly more relaxed and revived I realized how stressed I was. I could not let my mind free of thoughts for even ten minutes. This inspiration post did not bring me direct inspiration at the moment, but instead brought me more motivation to not worry about all the small things I have to do and take one step at a time.
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